fights
Tuesday, Oct. 11, 2005, 16:25

i feel, lately, that i spend all my time screwing up my life.

it started with quiting my job...

matt and i have been fighting for days now... we're done now, as far as i know, and it was all my fault.

he wants the family.

and i don't

and i dont want to hold him back from that.

and i'm trying to express to him things that i don't even completely understand. things about myself that don't make sense.

i love him so much.

but i dont want to be selfish and keep him when all he wants is things i cant do.

but all he wants is me.

dilema

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