i've been reading too much dracula
Sunday, Dec. 04, 2005, 10:27

i keep a distance for my own safety... i look at him sometimes as if i've never seen him before.

a lot of times i feel like we've not started dating yet.

i erase memories of him as they happen so that i am ahead in the healing process.

a life like this is a terrible one to live... both emotionally and philosophicly...

what pain it is to expect more pain. what pain it causes to shield yourself from love.

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