pictures pillows and falling in love
Monday, Jan. 02, 2006, 07:23

7.20 am is a stupid time for anyone to be awake.

this is my last opening shift as a barista and boy am i excited.

today after work (at one) i will go home and sleep for three hours because i have to work tonight (at five) and i have to be up late (eleven... at least) and i wont even get to see the boy until at least 11:14 (the time i usually get home)

that's 16 hours and 37 minutes more that i have to be without the boy's presence today (a long time)

i want to be able to go home and climb into bed with him for an hour or so before he goes to work... but he'll be long gone... and the bed wont be warm unless the cats are sleeping there when i get there... and it will be hard to nap because his pillow smells like me because i had to sleep alone last night and i woke up several times because i had a scratchy throat and i could only sleep by using his pillow, and when he finally came to bed i was all on his side bogarting his pillow and he pushed me over and ...

yea...

that was a whiny paragraph.

i bought two collage picture frames to put our pictures in and i feel like that's a step in the right direction as far as our relationship goes. he wouldnt understand because he thinks that girls are crazy when it comes to pictures...

but it goes like this:

- all the pictures i take i stick in an album... even if they are pictures of him.
- if they are exceptionally cool pictures i may find a frame for them, or just stick them out in the open where i can see them
- i took pictures of his family over christmas on my new fancy digital camera that he got me (which probably means i should start posting pictures) and i realized that i'm starting to get invested in his family matters (starting!! ha!)
- so i took all his pictures of jayden (his godson) and taylor and jake (his niece and nephew/godson) and all the pictures i've taken of him that are good and the one picture of me that's good, and my brother's and sister and the one picture he has of one of his brothers and i put them in two frames... together
- TOGETHER
- this means that if we break up, a variable amount of time must be spent to take those picture frames apart and pull out all the pictures of his family and then...
- later... a variable amount of time must be spent with me (crying) replacing the pictures that were taken out and probably take out all the pictures of him... and probably the picture of me (because it's the good one where you can see my butt. and all i will be able to think is how much he is obsessed with my butt every time i see that picture so i will have to take it out and put it away)
- make sense??

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